F.O.B. - Emotional sadomasochistic

space's silence
corrupted by scream
of mine or hers
don't know
alone and confused
what really I want
emotional sadomasochistic
I can't see the future
certainty destroying myself
it will let me to this certainty
but the thought of future
never leave me be
it's still provoking
hate against my own feelings
hate against my attitude